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Geeze, this is all very exhausting. I can't remember another time where I've felt tired so continually. I barely get a chance to sit put and relax. I'm working hardcore, I'm always up in White Plains for class, and have been longing for a day where i can just sit and truly enjoy myself from wake up until sleep time.

These matters have all exhausted me physically, and yet all i can seem to worry about is how mentally drained I am. I have to present my basis for my senior project next thursday, and right now i have zilch... just some minimal ideas on how i can tie France/French culture to me. I'll have time to contemplate that. Another thing is this boy. I'm stuck by him... I am the moth to his flame. I'm entranced by him and yet there's this feeling within about us which leads me to beleive that there is a lack of mutuality in regards to this feeling.

I miss the warm days of July, and the breezy conversations that I looked forward to. Now with Autumn begining, this climate change has correlated with the harsh gusts that frequent me, blowing me out of his periferals.

I'm at a loss for words... I've layed down everything i can to show him how i feel... yet, i don't think it's working.

All i can do is keep trying. I just dont want winter to come by and turn me frigid once again... winter 05/06 wasn't good to me and i'm still recovering from that to some extent...

Seas mio